Art!, Cadence, Manga, Writing!

Procrastination is Surprisingly Productive

On Mondays I don’t have class till 4, and given that I pushed myself out of my room and into activity every time I sat around for longer than 30 minutes over the weekend, I gave myself permission to bum around in my sweat pants on Monday till I need to leave.

Anyway, I’m 50,000 words into the novel adaptation of The Cadence of a Restless Heart (I KNOW what the hell am I doing with my life), and I’ve tended to get stuck in corners and it takes a few days of bumming around staring at my words before I pull myself forward in the story. That’s what I’ve been doing today but God this story’s so visual so I’ve been doodling people from it all day long. Especially Jonas, because I just wrote a big chunk from his perspective and I just think he’s the cutest darned things second to puppies. Well, that’s not true, I was drawing a lot of Cadence too because I just wrote her first scene, just like I drew Solaris last week right before I wrote him for the first time. Sigh, I just can’t separate drawing and writing and I doubt I ever will. Just still searching for a way to bring them back together again.

Sketch dump…and go!

D’awww, so I was trying to think of how to drive the scene when Cadence wakes up and I figured HEY it always helps when you MAKE PEOPLE CRY, so sorry Katherine you got the short end of this one
BUT ISN’T THIS SO PERDY
dammit women
Katherine put your butt away


ugh i don’t want to talk about this one
HOW DO I DO ELEGANT LINELESS DIGITAL ART
ffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu


Okay but this is pretty cool and I just made it because Jonas is struggling with caring more about the magicians than his mom
wow what a punk huh
anyway HE’S COO
and I like doing weird color palettes these days


Eh who cares, Syracrus your hair’s too big..

Art!, Cadence, Manga

Sun King

Whew!
Sort of the last 4 hours have been a whirlwind that sucked me into this piece. I’ve been wanting to really get into Solaris visually lately ’cause he’s just so neat. He always has been. I remember doing a huge pastel drawing of him in like 11th grade (even though he looked like a woman at the time…not so much now :3) because of his hot color scheme (no literally). Working digitally let me take this to a whole new level.
Also when I started drawing him today I did a bust and then I was like “No, I want to go more epic than that.” So of course epic I was thinking, cape-flying, scowling at the viewer and a few moments of sketching confirmed that wasn’t going to take off today. So then I went super-static like “basic drawing poses” and then I was like e___e so then I started thinking of Solaris and how he’s really struggled having all the power he does and how he’s sort of old and weary and introspective, so I opted for a more under-stated pose and as soon as I decided that I was golden. The more I look at this pose the more pleased with it I am. It’s totally him — working magic, still moving forward, but sort of dismissive of his powers what with his staff tucked into the crook of his elbow.
Oof but I just realized I forgot his tattoos/scars from when he was a Night Magician. So it looks like I’ll give this another round (…or not) sometime soon.
It was a nice union of applying traditional techniques to digital work but also taking advantage of digital tools and mess-free experimentation.
I did Solaris himself with the same approach to working traditional which was SUPER satisfying. It meant not getting really frustrated with his lines right away. I started with a low-opacity sketch that I worked directly on top of with stronger lines so that I could just erase the worst of the sketchiness as I went, just like normal. You can see he’s a lot more organic-looking than my digital people frequently end up.
Then first with his sunlight stuff I was just going to do boring old streakies but then, drawing inspiration from my host-sister’s way of getting inspired to do art, I decided to (GASP) experiment! In that way I found the cool real ink pens or whatever that exploded into that awesome smoky light over his head.
The only thing I’d like to keep working with is his staff. I found a good design for it based on dream catchers but I know it looks pretty crappy. Probably because I was thinking “God I suck at ornamental art” the whole time I was working on it. Good attitudes count, guys. xD

Other Peoples' Work!

From Up on Poppy Hill

This was the second film I got to see at the Civic Theatre in downtown Auckland, this time with my host-sister. I got to get pretty excited for it via an impromptu Miyazaki/Studio Ghibli marathon that’s been going on for the past week and a half or so. Since we decided to go see this I’ve watched The Cat Returns, Spirited Away, My Neighbor Totoro, Princess Mononoke, and half of Porco Rosso. Also, I’ve been reading Ursula K Leguin’s Tales from Earthsea, which is of course eons better than Goro Miyazaki’s film adaptation and thus the source of slight uncertainty about how much I would like From Up On Poppy Hill. This film came out in Japan last year and its writing team included both Goro and his dad the legendary Hayao Miyazaki.

It was absolutely breathtaking seeing a Studio Ghibli movie on the silver screen. The last film I saw like this was Spirited Away 10 years ago when I was in the 6th grade. Thus the fact that I watched this one here in New Zealand was special in its own way.

Anyway, the thing about this on big screen was how I got to see its stunning scenery and landscapes and characters so life-size. It was truly enthralling.

The story was incredibly complex in a mundane (that is: lacking fantastical qualities) sense, centering on the relationship between high schoolers Umi and Shun. Their budding romance against the backdrop of a student-led movement to save a historical clubhouse “The Latin Quartier,” reminiscent of Howl’s bedroom. And really if I say much more than that about the plot I’ll give the whole thing away. And I might give the whole thing away by saying the following but who cares. It was an awesome story that reminded me strongly of Fiela’s Child by Dalene Mathee which is cool ’cause that was one of my favorite international books I read in high school.

I thought it was wonderful how well the plots and sub-plots were woven together. There were even moments when Tina and I exchanged glances that said, Wow, I actually have no idea what’s going to happen. All the minor characters were, as usual, stunning, but I’ve got to say that my favorite minor characters were the Philosophy guy (this huge dude with a hilarious face who would work himself into huge fits of fervor and sweat and cry through his nose and stuff) and the artist that stayed with Umi. Seeing this on big screen meant not having to miss the shots where people were FREAKING OUT in the background and that was the source of a lot of really hard laughs.

Okay but I just need to say that I’m really waiting for a Ghibli film that has an excitable main female character. Gosh I mean aside from bursting into tears at one point, she was quite taciturn and soft-spoken. That certainly has its place, but that archetype seems to be held in some sort of reverence in a lot of Japanese/Asian works I’ve seen. I’m sorry but I connect more with a girl that randomly starts laughing or yelling at someone, more like Ponyo except she’s five so that’s not exactly a good example. And I guess Chihiro does that but again she’s like 12. I’m sorry to say that I kind of found her boring. Shun wasn’t much better but he at least had a really strong reaction to [certain plot points that shall remain undisclosed] that carried the tension a lot further than Umi did.

That’s really my only complaint though, and it’s not exactly a huge one. Over all, what a lovely experience!

Other Peoples' Work!

Beasts of the Southern Wild

I’m going to write the skeleton for this post and come back to it in the morning, because I so did not notice it’s already 11:30. The Civic Theatre was oh so awesome and reminded me of the Orpheum, with its grandiosity and decoration and the general air of awesomeness.

Okay sorry but I need to go to bed. Sorry if people are reading this from Far, usually I’m pretty sloppy in here BECAUSE I CAN BE.

Beasts of the Southern Wild is going to be one of those movies that wins all the awards even people can’t quite say why. By means of describing it, I would say it will be a story that one day becomes fable. Set in the harsh reality of an impoverished bayou community, the viewer quickly finds beauty in this rich setting even if only thanks to the film’s charming narrator, 6-year-old Hushpuppy. She weaves magic into this gritty scene and helps the film to walk the line between fantasy and reality.

One of the best-told, tensest moments in the film was when Hushpuppy’s daddy came home in hospital scrubs with a patient bracelet around his wrist, angry and disoriented, and unable to answer Hushpuppy’s cries of concern for him. So she runs back to “her house” and turns on the stove burner as high as it can go, watching her pot of cat food and condensed milk start to smoke and hiss. She starts her house on fire and climbs under a cardboard box, and her narration tells of how she’s left her story behind for the scientists of the future, and it’ll tell them everything.
She and her daddy get out of the burning house just in time but she runs from him. When he strikes her in the woods she declares, “I hope you die! I hope you die, and when you die, Imma go to your grave and eat all the birthday cake by myself!” (best line of the movie, in my opinion).
It’s not just for that line I liked this scene. It just set an incredibly intense dynamic for the father and daughter relationship, because we see he’s vulnerable even if Hushpuppy doesn’t understand, and we see she cares for him but he doesn’t know how to let her.
This, too, is the scene that heralds in the tropical storm to which the rest of the movie responds.

The whole film is wrought with spine-tingling moments, scenes and images that brought my hand to my heart or over my mouth, and the kind of beauty that makes you cringe but doesn’t fail to take your breath away.

There are a few “hiccups” I can’t overlook, though. The theme of the “beasts,” which are huge physical boars reminiscent of “Princess Mononoke,” was not satisfyingly developed. Fernando and I were sort of guessing what they really meant to the film. While the point at the end when Hushpuppy turned to face them still gave me chills, I for all my literary analysis can’t quite sort out what they meant. They might have been a metaphor for Hushpuppy’s character, or for the weather, or for fortune…it’s ambiguous in a way that’s more annoying than helpful.

I had a pretty neat experience seeing this film, at the premiere show for the Auckland International Film Festival with my new Spaniard friend Fernando. The Civic theatre is on the corner of two major metropolitan roads, Queen and Wellesley. You reach it on foot, crossing huge intersections with swarms of people, and walk into an old-fashioned building that would have been much cooler if my European companion hadn’t been dissing my standards of old architecture :P.
The actual cinema, as pictured in this sample I found (no photography inside, we found out the hard way), is breathtaking. Reminding me of the Orpheum with its grandeur and decoration, I loved the Siamese-style pillars and of course the stars that lit up over our heads with drifting clouds. It made me feel like I was really at an event, coupled with the fact that the director of the festival opened with a speech for the premiere show. I really enjoyed it and I am so excited to have 2 more films to look forward to at the Civic!

Cadence, Writing Journey, Writing!

ohai, ~19,000 words

So, I didn’t reeeeeeeeeeally anticipate this …Whispered the River novelization to take off quite this much. I’ve got a volume and a half of the manga all scanned in, which has helped me stay on track and also flip back and forth through the story to keep everything nicely knit together (which was the manga’s major problem.) I’m trying to keep a certain amount of the humor from the manga, and it’s sort of easy with a cast that includes 4 teenagers and a really flamboyant king. I’m really falling in love with these characters in a way I wasn’t quite able to with the manga, and they’re all possibly more distinctive than any of my other casts. The system of magic is so straightforward and lends itself to a lot of vivid imagery and richness.

Okay I’ll stop tooting my own horn, but I’m so glad I’ve got this to pour my energy into with how stressful everything will be for the next few weeks.

Art!, Cadence, Manga

HAND CRAAAAAAAMP

OKAY I don’t even want to take very long writing this because my eyes are BLEEDING from too much screentime.

I have just reminded myself why I gave up manga. I’ll leave all the “laziness” implications for another post.

I have been sitting at my computer for four and a half hours, trying to do a scene or two from “…Whispered the River” to see if it would be worth pursuing as a new, digital manga.

NO, NO NO

I admire webcomic artists SO MUCH but I do NOT HAVE THE PATIENCE or the BODY for that kind of work. Hours cramping my hand with my stylus; sloppy lines and bad speech bubbles. THAT’S ALL I GOT OUT OF THIS

Other Peoples' Work!, Writing!

“Un Lun Dun” by China Mieville

Ever since I was a kid that read that line in Proverbs that said there is nothing new under the sun, I’ve known that the goal of writing should not to be to tell a new story, but to tell an old one in a new way. Charles de Lint taught me that even though I’m young I’ve got a story to tell that belongs to nobody else, one that’s unique to me. It might fit into a lot of other lives but the details, the colors, are all mine.

So I must nod in reverence and appreciation when I find an author that manages to tell an old story that makes it feel new. I just finished a young adult urban fantasy novel by China Mieville of Perdido Street Station fame. I’ve promised my dad for years I’d read that novel, but the last time I tried when I was 14 or so, I couldn’t get past the part when the main heroine, a gigantic BUG LADY, spread her creepy wings in a way that was supposed to be sexual.

OKAY ANYWAY, you know there are certain books that you start to read and even if you can’t get through it, you know it’s fabulous and the author is worthwhile anyway. That’s how I felt about China Mieville, so when I ran across this title at the library and saw that it was for young adults, I thought maybe if I weren’t mature enough for “Perdido Street Station” yet, maybe his other books would draw me in.

BEST DECISION EVER.

Mieville’s power over atmosphere is unlike any other author I know. His settings are characters that are just as important, if not more important, than the living characters themselves. The whole premise of “Un Lun Dun” is based on pollution and on the existence of abcities, which are cities like our own that are built of leftover bits from our world…and vise versa.

Anyway, the story starts by two girls, Zanna and Deeba, experiencing some weird stuff about Zanna being the “chosen one,” or the “Shwazzy” (based on the French word for “chosen,” choisi. CLEVER RIGHT). What is established straight away is that China Mieville is MASTER OF PUNS. From Lost Angeles to Parisn’t to unbrellas (and rebrellas) to binjas (ninjas that take the form of dustbins…DUH) to Hemi the half-ghost, half-human boy from Wraithtown, Mieville had me going “…Huh-hah,” like, A MILLION TIMES. Okay, I’m really not taking this review as seriously as I meant.

What unquestionably impressed me most is the underlying message about…I don’t know, destiny. The reader quickly stops rooting for the “Shwazzy” Zanna straight away, taking pleasure instead in the quiet quips and vulnerable courage of her sidekick Deeba. So when they end up back in London and Zanna lost her memories in a fight, you desperately hope Deeba will get back and receive the credit for becoming UnLondon’s hero that Zanna obviously didn’t deserve. But people don’t instantly come to her side and Deeba must proceed risking her life for a city that doesn’t think she’s the chosen one.

About 300 pages into this 421-page book, we reached the scene when Deeba declares herself unchosen,, and the whole ideology of this story falls into place with a delightful CRASH. Of course the unchosen one would save UnLondon!

Anyway, like, I decided upon the conclusion of the book that it wasn’t like he was telling a new story. He wasn’t trying to. The whole book played off the archetypal “hero saves the city” structure. And it turned it on its head and yet still let it drive the story. Mieville was very aware that it wasn’t a new story and seemed to spend his whole time making sure that it had redeeming qualities. I think this comes easily to him because of how he personifies the city. It is seriously over-stimulating at times, because every corner of UnLondon has something new and strange, which is always described in detail. I believe it is a city that could have only been penned by Mieville, which makes him every bit the successful storyteller.

(In other news, I find that I like to bide my time after a brand new project by revisiting old ones. When I was working on Whispered the River‘s plot summary, I kind of fell in love with the premise for that story all over again. It’s pretty compelling. So, for fun, I’m putsing with a written version of it. So far, I’m getting sucked in. Okay I’m just 3 pages in. But still. It’s interesting, all right!)

Art!, Webdesign

WHAT’S WEBDESIGN?!

That’s right! After a week-and-a-half long struggle with this awful layout, I have just now launched My Mental Breakdown, the stories portion of my website! I had to write the layout and draw each story illustration and make unique pages for Andrew, Micah and Danyil and that doesn’t sound like as much work as it felt like it was. I was working at really large sizes with each image to preserve the details, which I concluded was a good thing when I kept trying to use old images with this new layout only to find out I’d resized them all way too small to use. The index page with me and Micah, Andrew, Danyil, and Ingrid was a 100+MB file, which has GOT to be the biggest file I’ve ever worked with. It also took a good 6+ hours in total, and had ~40+ layers in Corel Painter. I edited each figure a number of times over and could still go back and do more.

In all, rather than my tendency to be slapdash, HOLY SHIT I WORKED MY ASS OFF. I only cheated on Catcher because it was the last one and I was so mad that the good picture from the last layout was too stinkin’ small to use, so I just stuck in Andrew’s face because you can’t really go wrong there.

I’m not even QUITE done — I plan on going back in and adding several more pictures here and there for each project. I’ve also got to figure out a sub-menu so that you can navigate within Micah, Danny and Andrew’s page.

The image that I came out most proud of out of all of them, except maybe the one with me in it (whew, that sounds way more vain than intended), is one I took like 5 minutes on tonight (figures) when I was finishing up the boys’ pages.

andrew-unface
I’m finally ushering myself further into a period of experimental digital work. It started with the crazy lines I did with Lucas’ face, and then realizing that I can make my digital art sketchy, too, and then by integrating that with a painterly style of shading I’ve always seen and loved by never done to my satisfaction. My first time trying this was drawing Abas’ face at the coffee shop while he was making me proofread medical school apps.

abas
It’s just…woo. So I’m glad I got My Mental Breakdown done now, because it’s really the last chance I’ll have to do it before I ship off to Auckland.

My only question now is, of course: Now what?

Unface, Writing Journey

the thing about breathing life into stories

I am loving putting so much of my own experiences into “Unface.” It just makes those rough moments flow right over, and the details are just coming pouring out of my memory and down into the words. I’m talking about every aspect. I say, “Oh, high school art teacher here…that friend’s house there…the neighborhood…the bridge…that dream I had…the smells…the friendship I had with that person…what I know about cats…” and all of a sudden this story’s got its own life.
And just wait. I haven’t even gotten to writing the lesson this whole story is supposed to teach me yet.
And boy am I scared of it.

Also, I find I write most of it at night. The bulk of these almost 15,000 words has been written between 11:30pm-12:30am.
Given this is a story about dreams, I guess that’s incredibly appropriate.

Okay, also, I want to say after pushing out ~5 pages in the last 30 minutes that this story is writing itself. I had to do some planning in the first day or two of coming up with this idea, but since then, the most I’ve had to do is sketch out what Ashlyn looks like for fun.
I always say that my favorite works wrote themselves (I am NOT looking at you, Sun-Walking) and that when a project works, it just WORKS (knock on wood). Well, this is exactly what I mean when I say that. There is something truly effortless about working like this and I LOVE it. I will struggle through all the tough days if this is my pay-off. The same principle goes for my art, but I would say it’s not often as intense of a process as storytelling.

Art!, Nikkei, Other Peoples' Work!, Unface, Writing!

bunches and bunches!

Okay, since I’m angry at myself for interrupting my writing flow to write in here, I’m going to be succinct.

My new project’s going GREAT — I just hit 30 pages (ds). Because of all the parts of my own life I’m putting into it, it’s essentially writing itself. At the rate I’m going, it’s going to start off very short like Catcher did, around 100 pages. But that means I’m keeping the story simple, and that usually means I’m telling it better.

Also, I’ve been more creative in the last week or so than in the last few months combined. I bought myself a bunch of fancy watercolor-related items with my gift card from the art show, but I haven’t dove into those yet because I haven’t had the time.

I’ve been busy mostly producing digital stuff. I am continuing to experiment with satisfying digital styles, and my latest revelation is that I can sketch digitally too. I have never ever liked clean lines — I’ve admired them, but they’ve never resonated with me in my own work. Letting that rule go working digitally has helped a lot. I sketched Ashlyn from “Unface” and then recently did Micah and Ingrid, my power couple, when I was busy trying not to do any work for finals. Then with an urge to re-create the My Mental Breakdown part of my website, I did a pretty lovely little piece with Nikkei and Shani. I might still intend to do 9 of them for all my stories, but this was pretty laborious but it did itself. So we’ll see where my whims take me.
I’ve also been experimenting with limited color palettes — sticking with a tone and making the characters adapt to it, instead of going with what they would wear. It’s just a way to see how cohesive I can make my work, and maybe I’m trying to avoid my tendency to use the primary colors starkly and that’s it.

In addition to being very creative, I’ve also gotten the time FINALLY to get back into reading. I was planning on purchasing a simple, powerful little e-reader with e-ink technology because that’s the only way I would seriously enjoy reading a book on a screen, and I wanted something simple to bring with me to NZ. So I got one this weekend and have since gotten 100 pages into George R. R. Martin’s “A Game of Thrones,” 40 pages into Katherine Howe’s “The Physick Book of Deliverance Dane” (a title I got from searching “related to” Susanne Clark’s “Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell”), and 85 pages into Charles de Lint’s “The Painted Boy.” The lattermost is really exciting for me because Charles de Lint is probably the single most nostalgic fantasy writer I know. I’ve been reading him almost since I first got into fantasy and his books continue to pull me in with a violent passion. It’s reassuring to read his work because I remember how much I like reading: sometimes, school makes it feel like a chore and I forget that I love escaping into fiction.

Anyway, picture dump!


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ashlyn