Unface, Writing!

In the Land of the Unfaces

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With a week and a half of the school year left, it’s only natural that I come up with a very compelling story idea which soaks up all my interest. To be honest I’ve only written 13 pages and it hasn’t been really detrimental to my paper writing/presentation making/test studying behaviors. It has, however, gotten me really invigorated.

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I’m finally giving up my pursuit of lofty settings and cultures I don’t understand — for now. I want to see what kind of difference it makes when I set my scenes in streets I’ve walked and put my heroine in a life I understand. So far the only story I’ve purposely put my life into is “Farewell, Fairytale,” which is still a really satisfying story with really brilliant characters and a likable (I always want to put an E in that) world. (Funny aside — we were talking about the mere exposure theory in my psych class today, and my prof had us write down our favorite letters. Mine were E, S, T, R, and W. He then proceeded to inform us that generally people choose 5 letters from their name. S,T,E,W,R,T. It was honestly the first time I fell for one of his tricks!)

So this story, potentially, as noted, either called “In the Land of the Unfaces” (clunky) or “Unface” (more dystopian than I want to imply), takes place in the Cedar-Riverside community and is narrated by a 22-year-old psychology student doing an internship at a community mental health center. Ashlyn (last name to be decided) has always dreamed of people without faces and they haven’t ever scared her. But when her estranged best friend steps into her dreams and laughs at her, Ashlyn finds herself straddling her dream world and the real world. The longer she’s wandering through her mind’s terrain, the more like the unfaces of her dreams she becomes. In order to escape she must confront the shattered friendship of her past and learn to see the world through new eyes.

Okay, so I didn’t really mean to give an actual synopsis, but that sums it up nicely. So far I’m really driven by this. Then something made me think of Edvard Munch’s painting “Evening on Johan Street” and I realized this EUREKA! way to handle the technicalities of Ashlyn’s dream/wake worlds by making Munch someone that saw the unfaces, too. The idea of incorporating a fine artist into my story-line is AWESOME. That in conjunction with so many parts of my real life getting into this story gives it a LOT of potential. Plus, Ashlyn’s cat Pippin (PIPPIN!) is a main character because he’s a medium, able to be in Ashlyn’s world and the waking world and that’s SUPER COOL RIGHT?

Okay I’m done. I just needed to write this down so that I didn’t keep gushing about it to people that only listen to humor me, haha.

Other Peoples' Work!

A Rare Review: Insidious, a Horr(or/ible) Movie

Okay, so, I’ve been feeling a little impulsive lately and I believe six seasons of Doctor Who has left me craving a good story. For most of my life I’ve avoided horror movies because I have the tendency to terrify myself more than any story can. That’s lessened as I’ve gotten older because I can control myself a little better. Anyway, that’s going too far back. Point is that I’m in the middle of watching “Insidious” by myself (it came up on Netflix one day, which is the only reason I had any interest in it…random Netflix movies like “Sleeping Beauty” (dir. Julia Leigh; it’s got nothing to do with the Disney story) tend to catch my attention). I figured I may as well make something productive out of this.

First of all, one of my new ways to cope with stress is by relating it to Doctor Who. Previous example:

I was standing on the corner of Chicago Ave., heart pounding, drained from all the people I was around inside the art gallery opening, waiting for a ride I wasn’t sure would find me, with a dead cell phone in my hand. I held down the power button repeatedly, hoping the phone would spontaneously turn on. I thought, If the Doctor were here, he’d make it work.

Now I’m doing that again with this movie — Hey, that guy in the baby’s room looked vaguely like Christopher Eccleston. It’s just the Doctor trying to help them with their haunted son!

Anyway, I’m about halfway through the movie and these two guys that look like they work for the Geek Squad come to the house of the people with the haunted son and suddenly even though my palms are sweaty, their irreverent bickering is making me laugh. Then, the main spiritual-insight-providing woman is introduced and I like her instantly. She’s a sprightly little old lady in a mint green suit coat and she changed the whole tone of the movie. She dictates her vision of the spirit that’s possessing the boy to one of the Geek Squad guys and he draws it for her. Her manner of explaining her interpretation of what’s going on to the parents is so crisp and straightforward. This kind of excellent script-writing is what separates humdrum “supernatural thrillers” from movies with some intrinsic value.

I’m actually all right with the main demon, who was differentiated from the others “hovering around” Dalton’s “vessel” because of its intent to cause pain to others. Its depiction is very mythical: red face, hooves for feet. Made me think of a Minotaur. I’ve also messed with that sort of character in Redefining Evil in that Sotoka-Khepri may have been screwed up, but it was the demons with the intent to harm and thwart good that really made him vicious.

There was a lot of foreshadowing that led up to the connection between Dalton’s problems and his father’s. And I love that his issues were related to “night terrors” because it’s a term not often used but personally I’m familiar with. Josh (Dalton’s dad) was somewhat absent for the first part of the movie because it was Renai (Dalton’s mom) that started seeing all the spirits. I was worried his character was going to fall out of the storyline altogether and create this concept of women being the unstable ones. I was happy when all the responsibility for bringing Dalton back was placed on him because he had the same ability Dalton had to “travel” outside his body.

The portrayal of the spirit world that was layered on top of the real house was wonderfully surreal — boys from the 1920s laughing, running, and disappearing; a whistling man in a living room where a man and woman sit on a couch while one reads the paper; Josh wandering through the dark with a lantern — all doused in a milky green hue. I definitely thought of Spirited Away and how Chihiro is balanced between the human and spirit realm on the train when she sees spirits and humans in the same plane. Watching Josh demand that the spirits tell him where his son is while knowing Elise told him not to let them know he was there created the tension that led up to his discovery.

I REALLY REALLY REALLY liked that they gave this main villain a lair. So many horror movies I’ve heard of ride on the principle that something can only be scary if you can’t see it — e.g., Paranormal Activity. But this movie garnered itself a nearly-epic status when Dalton looked in horror up towards the ceiling of the red-tinted, Gothic hall to where his captor played music from a Gramophone while sharpening his metal hands (RIGHT?!)

This whole storyline is startlingly compelling. It’s incredibly focused and there are very few hokey moments that draw from its purpose.

…Ugh! And then the ending ruins it (Josh’s old haunt, the old lady, managed to steal his body and so kills Elise and Renai). Granted, it’s in line with the logic of the story. It also successfully ties together Dalton and Josh’s stories because they were struggling with the same thing and, where you would expect Dalton to lose since he powered 3/4 of the movie, he comes out unscathed, beating his Darth Mal-esque demon back to his own body. Meanwhile, Josh’s seemingly successful confrontation with his old lady haunt delayed his return to his body long enough for her to beat him to it. The only annoying thing (which is annoying to me in any story that does it) is that the ending left it wide open to a sequel, because Josh’s spirit is still alive in the spirit realm and we don’t actually know if the old lady managed to kill Renai too. Also, we didn’t technically see Dalton’s haunt get defeated; it just lost access to his body. So…so that would be interesting, and no, I would probably never watch the sequel.

Now, off to find humorous things to watch for the rest of the night! (Or do I have to watch Spirited Away now…)

This also makes me wonder if the only difference between a movie like Insidious and a normal movie that I would like that has spiritual elements is that horror movies insist upon making the ending either ambiguous or favoring the forces of evil. Most fantasy movies allow the idea that good always prevails. Many of the horror movies I think of defy this. Maybe that’s why they’re horror movies. I wish a story could have horror elements but a positive ending. Sigh.

Art!, Redefining Evil

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OH HEY!

What has it been, like, three months since I’ve done a substantial blog entry? Okay, well, given I had just enough energy to get these pictures on my computer, it might not be literally substantial…but I’ve done some work! Also, pretty exciting and validating is that I got two pieces into Murphy Square and two into the All-Student Juried Art Show. Granted, last year I was way flippant about them and so I submitted shitty pieces to both…but still, it’s not like I was guaranteed getting in this year! My stupid umbrella made it into both. I wish I felt more connected to it! It was literally one of my brain storms. “Wow, I have a lot of feelings and a lot of time right now…I’m going to use water color. And I love my watercolor pen right now. Hey, I’m really into umbrellas…” But I knew right after I did it that it would be a likable piece, and so it is.

Anyway, I’ve had some extra time on my hands (sigh) lately (or else I’ve been avoiding homework…really successfully), and I just finished all six seasons of the new launch of Doctor Who (won’t say anything here — just look at my Tumblr), and so what do I do in interim times of my creative life but pick up Redefining Evil. I finally got about to totally rewriting Lucas’ death scene because it’s pretty much driven me crazy since I first novelized it (beaches and funny jokes are much better in pictures and much more difficult to pull off in writing). I changed it from a beach to the forest outside the police headquarters castle and put it in the middle of the winter. Much easier to draw meaningful things from the scenery in that case. It didn’t end up any shorter though, so I guess somehow I still had things to say in there.

So what do I always do when I write about Lucas but draw a ton of doodles with him and Danyil. I mean duh. But the one I did tonight turned out really nicely.

Also, lately I’ve been feeling drawn to contouring — it’s always been a really expressive technique for me. So following that Lucas and Danny piece, I contoured Lucas’ face. I scanned it in and then had this brainfart when I realized that digital contouring might be a REALLY good way to draw some sophisticated complexity out of my digital work. Because my problem with digital lines has always been that they suck the life out of my image. There’s really no way to kill contours because they can’t help but burst with energy. So…ta-da! A new method to mess around with for the next few weeks! And now, images.

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WHOA WHOA WHOA THIS IS COOL
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Art!

THIS, THIS.

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A few hours after posting this to my Tumblr account, and it’s got over 50 likes and/or reblogs (the equivalent of a “favorite” or a “like” on DeviantART or Facebook). I mean, yes, it took me a long time — capturing each image through screenshots from the digital player of “Much Ado About Nothing” (starring David Tennant of “Doctor Who” fame and Catherine Tate, a relatively prominent British commedienne) and then making sure they all matched up & flowed smoothly (at one point I was working with over 60 individual frames and made a longer version, which was too much for…all of my uploading services to handle. What a learning process.)
Anyway, my point — this is why it’s so difficult to do your own art. I upload a picture of my own characters or a short story I wrote and get little to no attention. Who does? You’ve kind of got to be generic to get noticed. Generic. What a terrible word for an artist.

I mean, it’s also cool to get even a tiny bit of attention from any online community for something I put effort into. That’s indisputable. It’s just a little sad the way things work: us little guys have got to piggy-back on the fame of the big guys to some extent in order to stand any chance of becoming a larger person.

Oy. That’s a little depressing. D: But anyway, I’m still alive! Aside from nonsense like this GIF, I haven’t been up to a whole lot creatively. When I was waiting for “Much Ado About Nothing” to download (SIX BLOODY HOURS) I opened “Redefining Evil” and started putsing with it a little bit. That was a little refreshing…it’s an all right story, and I’ve missed it terribly.

Art!, Other Peoples' Work!, Writing!

Shameful

| am reluctant to admit that most of my artistic energy has been spent drawing men from Doctor Who and Sherlock. But I’ve fallen into this phase where observational drawings give me a lot more catharsis than my own characters, probably due to the fact that I’ve been doing very little writing or story-telling. I recently did create a cover for a hypothetical comic revolving around me and two of my closest friends at this school where I’m the accomplice to my friend the serial killer. Haha, that’s just the kind of morbid humor that keeps me going.

And I don’t really want to post any art right now because I haven’t gotten into one of my huge scanning fests, so I don’t have a ton of what I’ve been working on ready to put up here.

I’ll just post the one that I just finished, which is something that happened today. Again — I’ve been getting a lot more pleasure from recounting true stories, and that goes for drawing and writing. So in addition to that Doctor Who related comic that I’m going to post, I’ll also put up here a short story I wrote based on a real encounter I had on the city bus the week before last.

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And:

The city bus is a vessel for the unexpected.

After volunteering at the mental health community center, which would sound to be the most interesting part of the day, I scuttled into the slushy city streets to catch the bus.

I took my seat, giant pink headphones on, and then a gentleman sat next to me. Usually, if someone is creepy I’m mad that they sit next to me. But if they’re cute then I’m very pleased. Well, this man was somewhere in between, so I settled down and rocked out in my head.

Then he tapped my arm, so I slid my headphones down and gave him my attention.

He was somewhere in his late twenties but his wavy black hair over his headband included strands of silver. He looked at me and said, “Excuse me, but I am new to this country and I wanted to know if we could talk, so that I can practice my English.”

Enthusiastically, delighted by his request, I said, “Sure! Of course.”

I listened patiently as he explained that he had just applied for a Social Security Number and asked if I had gotten one, too. When I seemed confused, he drew the conclusion that I was a resident. Then understanding, I told him “Yes,” and said I’d had one my whole life. What a funny thing to take for granted – my own personal number issued to me by the government.

I allowed him to compose his questions carefully and made sure I listened closely. They were simple things: Am I a student? Were there dorms around here? Then why was I so far from West Bank? Are the people at that community center of all ages?

At one point he broke off mid-sentence and pointed past me and said, “Is that a helicopter?”

Grinning, I confirmed.

“Ah,” he said, sitting back in satisfaction, “it’s the same in my language.”

When I told him his English is good, he laughed, shook his head, and said “No, it’s not.” He went on, “Usually people do not like talking to me: They cannot understand me, and they talk so fast.”

I said, “Oh! Did you want me to talk fast?”

“No, because I cannot follow what they are saying. You are talking slowly, and it’s good.” He told me he was new to this country and that he did not speak English where he was from. “It is hard because I’m so alone. There is no one around me.”

Then I fell into a perfect display of American ignorance and said, “Aren’t there other Indian Ph.D. students?” His confusion following my question immediately revealed my error. I was flustered until I tried to rectify it frankly and said, “Well, hold on, where are you from?”

He laughed and touched his face and said, “You thought I was from India. I am from the Middle East. I suppose we may look similar.”

Feeling terrible, I said, “I’m sorry! I made an assumption.”

He dismissed the error as easily as I had made it and our conversation continued, with few moments of silence as the streets passed by. I told him I used to go to school from home and described Brooklyn Center in geographical relation to Minneapolis.

He asked, “Is it by Duluth?”

Endeared by the comparison, I said, “It’s in that direction! But it’s a lot closer. Did you go to Duluth recently?”

He nodded. “I went this weekend because someone told me I would like it.”

“Did you like it?”

Making a slight face he said, “Yes…”

I laughed and said, “Kind of?”

“Well it is different because they told me how beautiful it would be. But I have seen many beautiful places – in Switzerland, in my home country. Here it is winter.”

“Yeah,” I told him, “a lot of people think winter is ugly. Because it’s just white and slushy.”

The conversation drifted. We were getting close to my bus stop.

“What country are you from?” I asked, driven by the realization that he wasn’t going to say but burning with curiosity.

“Oh,” he said, glancing at me sidelong, his reticence clear. “I am from Iran. Do you know it?”

I smiled and nodded. And that’s it. I wondered if he believed I would hate him for it.

He said, with a faintly bewildered expression, “You have been very nice. Some people I talk to just…they do not really want to. I find that people here are…” He searched for words. “…Cold. Like the winter.”

I was absolutely delighted by this comparison and I wish now that I had expressed more agreement with him. Instead I tried to produce words that were similarly meaningful and I know that I failed – me, a natural English speaker, worse with my words than a man that has been in this country for two months.

I had to get off and I did so reluctantly. Our conversation wasn’t over. I stomped into the snow and could feel the moisture through the soles of my Chucks. I stood on the street corner waiting for the lights to turn. I looked through the windows of the bus and found his face. He waved. I smiled.

Okay, fine, this too:

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All right, that’s all.

Actually I will also add what is really a natural thing for me to say now: at the moment, I’m really defining myself through these different works of fiction. I blame it on Tumblr, because all I use it for is reblogging things from LotR, Game of Thrones, Sherlock, Doctor Who, Avatar (The Last Airbender), etc. Consequently, I’m convincing myself to be determined that I only want people in my life who think either my obsessions are funny, or who are just as obsessed as I am. Haha. Whatever.

Art!, Emotional Breakdowns

art is still my solace

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I was going to do some pretty girl, but I made some awesome monster woman instead. My pieces are usually pretty static so this movement is like HELL YES.
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I wanted to see if I could do one of those old fashioned indulgent cute pictures of Micah with a more technical media. Then when I closed my sketchbook half the charcoal got ground into the opposite page. So it’s sort of monochromatic.

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I started with a basic picture and then I didn’t like it so I smeared it out and added the main figure over him, and then worked really hard to get the shading smooth, but then I wanted to add texture.

So, in conjunction with boredom, I’ve been processing a lot of life changes and it’s left me with a lot of moments of nervous idleness. When I’ve got nervous energy and nothing else to do is when I pick up my sketchbook and explore. The results of that the past week have been really good. It’s followed my whole attempt to synthesize technique with expression. It’s definitely been a relief to me to be able to get into drawing. I’m really glad to feel like that hasn’t changed.

Art!, Original Characters

Along the Same Vein

So, to offer an update on the subject in “Synthesis,” I’ll say that I’m still very much enjoying and benefiting from that newfound purpose of creating my unique characters through legitimate techniques I learned in school. I’ve done a few pictures in that style. I’m definitely not sick of doing things this way, either. I feel like there’s a lot more to explore and communicate.

 


I followed my usual style of doing things up until the ink wash. Also, I used a brush and ink well rather than a pen for the lines, giving them more character. Then, I took a risk and decided to add a second color and made the umbrella red. Then I was trying to figure out how to help Andrew, Micah and Danny from being lost in the grayness that they sat on. So after testing it on the digital copy, I took a risk and made that pink wash in the background. It also helped to distinguish what I was doing in the bottom portion. I think this turned out really nicely. (:

 

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This was a product of boredom at 10:30 at night, with some help from my cat Hoshi, who was very determined to eat the conte crayons I was using on this. For this I had in mind a piece I did in a similar setting with Andrew from when I was in high school. But I way simplified things; my goal in its predecessor was to make the image as cluttered and busy as I could. This one ended up with that epic focal point with the book after I decided to leave the window area starkly white. Since that was a decision made late in the piece, the light source shading on Andrew is a little questionable and inconsistent. But this was also practice on creating a face without making every tiny detailed line: more of an idea of the face, rather than a completed face.

 

Other Peoples' Work!

The Other Boleyn Girl

I am sleepy and just finished the movie after having read 400 pages of Phillipa Gregory’s “The Other Boleyn Girl” over the last two days and the other 250 pages within the last week. In other words, will this review be as coherent as I’d like? Probably most definitely not.

Anyway, I hardly need to say that the book far outdid the movie and that the movie picked and chose points from the book and excluded many others while also rearranging them as it pleased the movie making people. That’s always irritating. On the other hand, the acting was superb and that’s a surprise because I did not expect Scarlett Johannson to make a better Mary Stafford than Natalie Portman, who made a significantly better Anne than I anticipated. (Also, now having seen “The Other Boleyn Girl” with her borderline psychotic acting, I’m beginning to think Portman is as psychotic in actuality as she is in “Black Swan”). George Boleyn was superb. And although William Stafford, barely in the movie at all, was positively adorable, I attributed a much higher level of smoldering masculinity to him in the book than the freckled skinny guy showed in the movie (edit on 4/10/12: that freckled skinny guy was Benedict Cumberbatch, one of the most smoldering bachelors on the movie scene right now…HAHAHA. But still…different kind of sex appeal.).

All right, now that that’s out of the way — the book. I haven’t gotten this absorbed into a book in a long time. I mean, I’m sore from sitting for consecutive hours reading simply because I could not bring myself to physically stop. Gregory’s writing is florid, smooth, and warm. Mary was a wonderful narrator, balancing gentleness with realism. I wanted her to win her quiet, well-deserved life and love for the whole book. And Gregory delivered the happy ending with all the female sensibility anyone could muster. Well, at least the happy ending for Mary. She’s really the only one that won.

This was a book on the brutality of sexual politics. That’s really all. And that strikes a resonant note for me because, as I was watching ten minutes of “The Bachelor” (one of my first time watching the show), I realized we haven’t changed. As much as the cast revolved around King Henry, and pleasing his every whim, and seducing him into giving others what they want, well, that’s exactly what “The Bachelor” (aka “The King”) does today. It’s a royal courtship with the meager addition of a few shinier lights and better-cut scenes for added drama.

Now, is Gregory’s depiction of the English court altogether accurate? Well, who knows, some say it isn’t, but I don’t care. I will admit her slightly informal dialogue broke some of the magic for me, because I couldn’t imagine such colloquial language in such grandiose halls as she excellently described. I haven’t looked into any of the controversy of this book and I don’t care to.

For me, it was a delight. It was a wonderful, wonderful delight to depart so readily into a fictional world again as I haven’t since I was in my early teens. However, I’m certainly glad I hadn’t gotten my hands on this book when I was that age, because it’s pretty darn sensual. It’s rarely explicit but, boy, I mean, a book revolving around sexual politics is bound to be. Gregory handled it well but probably went overboard at times. I would have liked to read of a greater distinction between Mary’s antics with the King (a girlish, naive fantasy for her) and her love with William Stafford (true, through and through). Regardless, Gregory won me over to a lot of the less ambitious characters. Her prose was pretty and neat and her characters’ stories were well-knit. In particular, I was really impressed at how well she kept the characters in order. I often lose track of who’s who in books with a large cast, and the cast of “The Other Boleyn Girl” was monumental in size. But I said “Oh, I hate her.” and “Oh, I like him. I’ll bet he’ll come back in later and woo her. … Oh, good! I knew he’d be back. I’m so glad he got knighted.” and “Man, she’s creepin’ at their door. I know this is going to come back to haunt them, that dirty snake.” And on that note, yes, the storyline was more or less predictable. But that didn’t at all, in the least, inhibit my desire to read it through to its whopping 600-some page conclusion.

So, yay! Reading is a delight to me, I just wish I had less trouble finding gems like this! Soon I’ll be back to school (too soon) with no time for pleasure reading. I’m glad I read something so huge while I could. This’ll hold me for a while.